I thought a lot about the word "care" as I waited for my blog to get up and running. I'm starting a new journey in my life. I am completely unaware of how to truly work a blog, yet I know that I am being lead in this direction. I feel that if I could take the word of the week and be able to write something than I could also blog it.
I believe this to be a challenge for me to actually truly think about the word. So this past week I thought about "care". I didn't write anything, just thought. Now here it is a new week with a new word. I like the word BELONG.
I mean Peanut butter and Jelly belong together. Mom & Dad belong together? Printer & Paper? What truly does BELONG?
In the last hour I have thought about what the word means. Hmmmmm.....What does Belong mean to me?
New changes in my life as well as new challenges. I am 48 years old. For 37 of those years I would refer to the word Belong as,
What belonged to me?As a small child, my toys, clothes, my mom and dad belonged to me. I believe that for most of us the first word we learn is "mine," which to me references what belongs. If I found something it was mine, belonging to me.
Where did I belong?As I grew up and changed I wondered "where do I belong?" Is that group of girls where I belong? How am I alike? We yearn to belong somewhere. We search and search. We make choices thinking we belong in certain activities, groups, cultures. After a while we may than wonder....
Did I belong there or here?We grow more and we start to think what group we are with is not where we belong. As young adults we want to belong to someone. If we are single/married feeling hurt and unwanted we may even want to have someone belong to us. Often one clings to material items that they can say belongs to them. Boats, houses, etc.
Who belongs to me?As I reflected on this six letter word, I also came to realize that sometimes we may even reflect who belongs to me/us? Who do I belong to? I am finding this word to be a powerful word.
I know that as my life started, I belonged to my parents. One of the first things I remember was that when I was given something, it belonged to me. If you stop and think about it one of the first things that we teach our children is what belongs to whom!
A toddler is told "NO". Why? It does not belong to him/her. Yet a short while later as they age they are taught to "share" what belongs to them! Yet what they wanted at one time or another was a "NO" so we are really teaching them to "Share"?
As I grew older I wanted to belong so badly. I felt as if I didn't even belong in this world. I felt most of the time all that wanted me was anything that got me into trouble. Though I knew that if I got in trouble I could get attention and feel like I belonged. I would hang with the wrong group, change what I believed in, talked in ways I would never talk just so I could feel like I belonged! It never worked out the way I wanted it to. Usually, it made me feel less wanted.
When I gave birth to my first son, I was so excited. Someone that belonged to me and I belonged to them. I never had to feel like I didn't belong any more. That was not true.
I have had some very life changing events in the last five months. I lost my dad and this will be another time. I gained complete joy and love and life and I found where I truly belong.
My first thought when I saw the word BELONG was I belong to Jesus! Than I pondered. What did I use to think? How did belong, belong in my past. I look back at my life and really realize that I was a very lonely person. No matter how much I thought I belonged I never did. My children don't belong to me. Who do I belong to?
As I sat here wondering and wondering.......I know I belong to Jesus. How many struggle with where they belong? Want to belong somewhere or to someone?
I am currently reading Ezekiel as it has been very moving for me. This was something that I remembered,
For everyone belongs to me, the parent as well as the child—both alike belong to me. (Ezekiel 8:4)
If we live, we live for the Lord; and if we die, we die for the Lord. So, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord. (Romans 14:8)As I have had some struggles, I have had this happiness, joy that I never felt before. I know where I belong. It has been a not-so-easy journey to get to, but I know that it was well worth all the lessons that I have learned.
If you read this and you feel as I once did, "I don't Belong", you do BELONG no matter what, no judging.
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