Monday, May 23, 2016



According to Wikipedia:

Faith is confidence or trust in a person or thing; or the observation of an obligation from loyalty; or fidelity to a person, promise, engagement, or a belief not based on proof, or it may refer to a particular system of religious belief such as in which faith is confidence based on some degree of warrant the term 'faith' has numerous connotations and is used in different ways, often depending on context.

Faith is the opposite of doubt.

Faith is possibly the single-most important element in the Christian life.
And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him. Hebrews 11:6(ESV)
Our proximity to God drives
our activity for God

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1(NIV)
I know that by having faith I know God keeps his promises and he will always provide for me. Through faith I have strength and courage to deal with anything that comes my way.

I use to see things as impossible now with my complete faith in God I know all things are possible.

Sunday, May 22, 2016

My Light

Do you find yourself just sitting Stale?

Do you every just sit and try and remember what you did for the last week......?

Did you find yourself sitting in Darkness?

     My answer to those questions is  YES!

I say pretty stale and in darkness for the last week.  I would not have thought that on any one given day over the last week.

Do you realize that Mother's Day was only 2 weeks ago! Hard to believe.  What have I done with those 2 weeks?

It sure feels like it has been much longer than that.

On Mother's Day a family of Robin's hatched, the nest is right on my deck in my flower pot.

I have watched these 3 babies grow.  Watched the parents take care of them as well.  Feedings, keeping them warm, protecting them from danger (I think they thought I was lol)  I sure did learn a lot about Robins.

I also realized that I was sitting in darkness.  Where the Lord at in my life.  See I have fear of what he wants of me.  I know that I am worthy, just sometimes I fall a little short.  I think we all do.  I know that we may even get down on ourselves about it.  I did!  I know that I can fix it and I plan too.

He gave this verse to me

I am so excited for this week.  I am going to go forward into the light.  Finish filling out the application for college, write more where he wants me, most of all, LISTEN to him.

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Friday, May 20, 2016


Hello everyone,  My good friend Diana Rockwell writes on Five Minute Friday.  I am new to blogging as of February 2016.  I don't know what to really Expect just hoping that I will be able to get a better hang of all this.

I am a Christian, was baptized November 3, 2015 something that I did not expect as I had been baptized in February 2013 when I originally gave my life to the Lord.  I am in Love with the Lord and am eager to continue on my journey.  I know that I expect that i will have days that I may fall a little short, I know that I am human.

I have no expectations as to what may come of this blogging, I just know that it is where the Lord is calling me at this time along with going back to school.  I don't know what he expects to happen with that as I am scared to attend school.

See I was not that good at school.  I only expected to graduate way back when........ Oh ok,  I graduated in 1986.  I am 48 years young, I have two grown boys.  Benjamin, 28, Zhan, 25.  Benjamin is married to my wonderful daughter-in-law Ashley and they have blessed me with 2 amazing granddaughters,  Addison Grace (3) Evelyn Rose (4 months).

So I am glad that I did not have to much to expect as to what I could type in 5 minutes.  I just looked it up as I had received it in my email and decided this was the Friday I was going to start.  I sure do hope that it links.  I am not real comfortable at that yet either.

God Bless All of you.

Joining you all at Five-Minute-Friday

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Thursday, May 19, 2016



She sits and waits…….

Waiting and waiting…….

She knows what she longs for

Will he ever give it to her?

As she sits on the ground, there he is

Will he do it?

She closes her eyes and she can see him

As he approaches her he lifts his hand to her chin

Raising her head eyes meet

As he looks at her he says  “I love you!”

Reaching down and holding her tight giving

Her the kiss she is so longing for.

Day dream and day dream

Is all she seems to do.

How she longs for his touch………..

Now here she sits not all alone……..

Yet she is all alone…………..

Tuesday, May 17, 2016

Blogging from A to Z April Challenge: A REALLY BIG Thank You!

Blogging from A to Z April Challenge: A REALLY BIG Thank You!
Had lots of fun and it taught me a lot for a first time just starting out blogger 

Monday, May 16, 2016


As I lay here not being able to sleep I am struggling.

I have struggled to just do my day to day.  March 8 I could feel a change yet I chose
to ignore, or did I?

April came and went.
The returned birthday card-
the pain in my heart.
I felt like falling apart

I am strong
I will not let this tear me apart.
I know I am different
From all the rest
The hurt is not any less.

Oh how I love them
No matter what they do
I cry my tears
Both day and night
Hide from the world I can
Hide from God,
I can not........

He even asked the Lord up above

And going a little farther he fell on his face and prayed, saying, “My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as you will.”   Matthew 26:39

Even Jesus didn't want to go through all he did if it was not necessary.
He would and he did.

This I know that I can be healed, I don't have to
Let this control me......
For he tells me this.......
Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” (Matthew 19:26 NIV)
I will not lead on my own understanding.

Heavenly Father,
  I know that the only POSSIBLE way through this storm is through you.
Please forgive me of my sin in doubt by laying here sulking, forgive them
Lord for they know not what they do.
I know you have not place others to replace me, you put them there to watch over
My loved ones during this time I need to be apart, it will not remove me from
Their heart. Guide me, as I have knowledge I seek wisdom as to how to
handle this the way you would.
I praise you for giving me grace for giving your son to die
For me.  In Jesus name I pray

Please follow as I link up with Karen at Tuesday at  Ten

Monday, May 2, 2016

Forgiveness Tuesday@10

 Forgiveness is Very Powerful

It is hard to forgive, wouldn't you agree?
Forgiving requires work, sacrifices.  I never realized how much work went into forgiving.  I have my whole life forgiven those around me.  I thought that since I did forgive everyone why did I hurt so much? 
A few years ago I read this book by R.T.Kendall "Total Forgiveness".  After reading it I actually purchased the audio book.  Because I travel I felt it was good to have, as forgiving is not just a one-time deal.   As you read on you will see:
 The answer to the question why did I still hurt so much?
    The two most important I never forgave myself or God!

 Why not forgive myself?
   1. I never felt I deserved forgiveness
  2.  It seemed to me that no one on earth ever forgave me.
  3.  Due to the fact I felt I did not deserve to forgive me - I could not imagine that
       God would forgive me.
 Why not forgive God?  Why did I need to forgive God?
  1.  He would not forgive me
 2.  I felt that when I prayed to God at a young age he never answered 

 Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they don’t know what they are doing.” And the soldiers gambled for his clothes by throwing dice. (Luke 23:34 NLT)
How does one learn to forgive?
When we forgive we release another from a sin (action) that was done against us.
 Society tells us that if someone has hurt you to push them away.  Not to keep that negative in your life.  That is not Gods way.
 If you choose to push away from the one you need to forgive - you allow "SIN" to "WIN".  We need to draw closer to each other to become stronger to NOT allow "SIN" to "WIN"
 Deciding to forgive someone that hurt you is a choice - a choice that god wants us to make.
 Forgiving is a daily process.  You never know when something will remind you of the hurt someone caused you.  The bigger the hurt the harder it can be.  The less you think of the hurt and feed your anger the easier it becomes.
 Sometimes our emotions can get confused with forgiveness.
 I felt that if I was having a "HAPPY" moment - I had forgiven the one who hurt me - than just one small thought popped up and I would be angry again.
 I did this for 5 years.  After my ex-husband had an affair we continued to stay married.  We had many "Good" days than out of the blue - a reminder would creep in - be a reminder to him how I spent money we didn't have and lie about it - or - her name and I was reminded all over again how he lied and hurt me.
 Finally after 5 years of this ongoing battle I found myself getting involved in a relationship.  Thought the grass was greener - so I left.  I had been gone only 3 days and realized how much I truly did love my husband.  How I had spent so much energy at being hurt I forgot about who he truly was.  He is human and made a mistake.  His actions of showing me he was sorry just looked to me like he was only doing them because of his mistake, not because he loved me.
 We both got lost and lost sight of that love and who we really were as individuals and as a husband and wife.  We truly were awesome together.  I wanted to go back home so bad - run into his arms and take back all the hurting words - I just didn't know how. I became angry with myself for hurting my best friend.  I felt again, I didn't deserve to be forgiven.
 I didn't want to forgive because I didn't want to get hurt again - I was afraid. 
  (I think a lot of us fear this)
 When you forgive it does not mean you forget.  In fact, God never said we are to forget - in fact if you can look back at the hurt and the pain - look at how God brought you through the mess.
            “Do not judge others, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn others, or it will all come back against you. Forgive others, and you will be forgiven. (Luke 6:37 – NLT)
The past pains can be used for future gains.  You reflect on how God brought you through that storm to get you through a future storm.