Monday, May 16, 2016


As I lay here not being able to sleep I am struggling.

I have struggled to just do my day to day.  March 8 I could feel a change yet I chose
to ignore, or did I?

April came and went.
The returned birthday card-
the pain in my heart.
I felt like falling apart

I am strong
I will not let this tear me apart.
I know I am different
From all the rest
The hurt is not any less.

Oh how I love them
No matter what they do
I cry my tears
Both day and night
Hide from the world I can
Hide from God,
I can not........

He even asked the Lord up above

And going a little farther he fell on his face and prayed, saying, “My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as you will.”   Matthew 26:39

Even Jesus didn't want to go through all he did if it was not necessary.
He would and he did.

This I know that I can be healed, I don't have to
Let this control me......
For he tells me this.......
Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” (Matthew 19:26 NIV)
I will not lead on my own understanding.

Heavenly Father,
  I know that the only POSSIBLE way through this storm is through you.
Please forgive me of my sin in doubt by laying here sulking, forgive them
Lord for they know not what they do.
I know you have not place others to replace me, you put them there to watch over
My loved ones during this time I need to be apart, it will not remove me from
Their heart. Guide me, as I have knowledge I seek wisdom as to how to
handle this the way you would.
I praise you for giving me grace for giving your son to die
For me.  In Jesus name I pray

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